Tools and Treasures #fiveminutefriday

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The last seven and a half years have felt, in many ways, like an out of control fairground ride. (With no ejector seat, no matter how many times you press the red button in front of you.) Everything that has happened to us has felt unexpected and unforeseen: how ill I would be after I had my baby, the illness getting worse, the struggle to find childcare, the difficult decision of when to buy disability aids as my body stubbornly refused to get better.
 
During this time, I have often struggled to see God as Provider. All I have seen is what it feels like God has taken from me: my independence, the outside world, my job, my plans for mothering, my hobbies. Chronic illness has robbed me of these.
 
But it’s like being on one of those computer quest games (at least, I imagine that’s what it’s like, I’ve never played them…) where you are on a journey and have to fight goblins and kill dragons with tools and treasures you find along the way.
 
It’s taken me a while to notice, but there have been things to be thankful for, tools and treasures placed into my hands that have allowed me to cope better. It’s not that the illness is good, but that I have had some good gifts around me to help.
 
For the last 7.5 years, we have been given a spacious and quiet home, a perfect place for healing. We’ve had friends who’ve been there for us at crucial times and a church who has understood and supported us. I have had a husband who cooks amazing food, even managing paleo restrictions when I decided that nutrition might be the answer to all my problems. And I’ve had the joy of witnessing my baby grow and develop over the years.
 
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The origin of the word ‘provide’ gives us a different perspective on the word – before-seeing, or foresight. The God who provides is the God who sees ahead. We couldn’t anticipate our circumstances, nor what we would need. Alongside our scrabbling around to get the help we needed, we also found unexpected supplies to help us on the way.
 
This is how God works: one day you find yourself with a gift in your hand and you don’t know how it got there. The journey may still be long and the quest seemingly impossible, but Someone has seen it before you. I need the God who sees me, but I also need the God who foresees my journey and my future needs.
 
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I don’t know why some of our needs are met and others not, nor why some people’s journey is so full of tears and pain. For some friends, I want to rage on their behalf, ‘not that small gift! Take it back and replace it with the bigger gift of healing!’ There’s mystery and frustration in that space.
 
But I am starting to notice the unexpected gifts in my life, and reminding myself that maybe it’s not a coincidence. Maybe God saw my need before I did. Maybe God’s already looking to the road ahead, and when I turn the corner I’ll find another mountain, another tool in my hand.
 
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Over to you:

  • In hard circumstances in life, what tools have you found in your hands that God placed there?
  • How have you experienced God’s fore-seeing?

 
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4 Responses to Tools and Treasures #fiveminutefriday

  1. Ruth 20th March, 2018 at 4:54 pm #

    I never realised that about the word ‘provide’ before. But looking at how the word is made up, it makes sense. Thanks Tanya!

    God fore-sees for me. Yes.

    That makes my heart sing. It makes much more sense when you’re ill long term. How true it is that your circumstances affect your understanding and appreciation of God. Even though He is the same yesterday, today and forever, I am changeable and easily influenced. Thank God for His faithfulness!

    God has this uncanny ability to use every circumstance to grow and mould us – even when we’re tempted to just sit and seethe or wallow in misery. He will lift our heads and show us how He’s still got plans for us. Amazing!

  2. Penelope Wallace 19th March, 2018 at 9:20 am #

    Thank you, Tanya. I may pass this on to a friend who is hurting (and waiting) when she’s a little less raw. God has given you the gift of helping many people through your book.

  3. Jean 18th March, 2018 at 8:52 pm #

    I do not know what it is about reading Tanya’s words but they spread peace and somehow hope. Guess it is cos God’s spirit is in them. What an encouraging post : I too find in my much lesser struggle God gives gifts. It is like that book by Sharon James about seeing God’s glory.Thank you Tanya for bringing the peace of God s love and grace into my life tonight as I read your words.

  4. JA Andrews 18th March, 2018 at 5:59 pm #

    “This is how God works: one day you find yourself with a gift in your hand and you don’t know how it got there. The journey may still be long and the quest seemingly impossible, but Someone has seen it before you.”

    I love this. My husband and son have started a new video game recently, and so often I hear something like, “What is blackthorn root?” And the other one say, “Who knows? Grab it. We’ll probably figure out what it’s for later.” And now every time they do this, I’m going to think, “YES! Because God knows what’s coming.” 🙂

    When I went through probably the darkest time in my adult life, I found a journal entry from six months earlier where I’d prayed that God would find a way to help me need him more. Because I knew I didn’t feel that. Then, when I found that journal entry, at first I was so angry. Because it felt like God had taken that heartfelt desire and rewarded it with something horrific. But once I thought about it longer, it felt more like grace. Because God knew the tough times were coming, and perhaps it was grace that prompted my heart to lean towards him then, helping me to have a more firm grasp on him when the bottom fell out.

    So thanks of this reminder.
    #mycommentsarealwaystoolong

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