What I’m Into – Mar/Apr 2016

Super-ill, but embracing my inner Ravenclaw

Super-ill, but embracing my inner Ravenclaw


For reasons that will become clear, this is a late, double-bill edition of What I’m Into – the Mysterious SuperVirus ME Relapse edition. Which means that these past two months, although I couldn’t do much writing, I was into watching a lot of TV, and as I began to improve in April, reading some books. So I have LOTS of great recommendations for you! (Scroll down for more details about my month, plus birthday pictures – but first – book reviews!)

Christian books:Malestrom

  • Malestrom – Carolyn Custis James. What does the Bible say about the nature of manhood? This is a follow-up to her widely-praised book, Half the Church, but whereas her first book focused on the damage of patriarchy to women, this book focuses on the concept of manhood, and how patriarchy damages men. It is a brilliant book – she writes engagingly and fluently about how patriarchy is currently damaging cultures across the world, and she goes through the Bible looking at examples of where God’s followers, and ultimately Jesus, challenged patriarchal values and showed truly what it is to be a man as God intended. She is clearly an incredibly gifted Bible teacher, and I found her fresh insights and rigorous scholarship riveting. It is a book I would love men (particuarly pastors) to read – but I fear that, ironically enough, patriarchal values will mean that men are less likely to read it because it’s written by a woman. I hope I’m proved wrong and that men and women alike explore the issues raised in this book, because it is a discussion that needs to happen. A brilliant book – highly recommended. Get it for $10.29 for kindle, $14.24 Hardback from Amazon.com, £6.99 for kindle, £12.99 Hardback from Amazon.co.uk or £9.73 Hardback from Wordery.com (UK)

Christian Memoir:

Night Driving Addie Zierman

  • Night-Driving – A Story of Faith in the Dark – Addie Zierman. When We Were On Fire, Addie Zierman’s first book, was possibly the best Christian memoir I’ve ever read, so I had high hopes for her second book, and I wasn’t disappointed. How can you believe in God when you can’t feel God anymore, when your faith has gone dark? This is the question Addie wrestles with, as she takes a 3,000-mile road-trip down to Florida to escape the Minnesotan winter. (With two children in the car under the age of five). Addie is the master of spiritual memoir, and she not only captures the relentlessness of winter and mothering two small children, but the loss of childhood faith, and the search for more. This is a must-read for anyone struggling with a dark night of the soul, or anyone feeling the weariness of parenthood. Funny, poignant, beautiful – I highly recommend it. Get it for $11.24 from Amazon.com, £10.62 from Amazon.co.uk or a bargainous £7.65 from Wordery.com (UK)

Surprised by Oxford

  • Surprised by Oxford: A Memoir – Carolyn Weber. This is the story of how a Canadian atheist, studying a Master’s degree in English Literature at Oxford in the 1990s, was wooed by a man (and his belief in Christ) and through subsequent discussions became persuaded of Christianity. It’s long, but an enjoyable read, and as someone who’s lived in Oxford before, I thoroughly enjoyed the trip back down the cobbled streets of memory lane. She describes Oxford life as it is – with the earnest, intellectual (and occasionally pretentious) debates and discussions that Oxford students and dons have about religion in pubs and coffee shops. She interweaves her study on poetry throughout the book, which is beautiful but sometimes hard-going, even for a literature graduate like me, because the poem extracts are often quoted without context or explanation. This would appeal especially to anyone who’s lived in Oxford or lovers of literature and theology. Get it for $11.99 from Amazon.com, £11.20 from Amazon.co.uk or £8.58 from Wordery.com (UK)


To Rise Again At a Decent Hour

  • To Rise Again at a Decent Hour – Joshua Ferris. This is a Man Booker Prize-shortli
    sted novel, and I absolutely loved his previous book, Then We Came to the End, so I had high hopes for this one. The narrator is a dentist who is searching for meaning in life and feeling vaguely suicidal, when one of his patients begins to impersonate him online, stealing his identity and writing strange things about a ‘religion and people more persecuted than the Jews’. In its favour: it’s wry and sardonic, and I laughed out loud several times, especially in the beginning. But the parts about the supposed religion were unnecessarily long and convoluted, and the protagonist isn’t very likeable, though he is hilariously tragic. As a sardonic examination of the narcissism of America’s Generation X, it’s pretty good, and it’s definitely worth a read, but in terms of story and reading experience, I would vote for his other one, Then We Came to the End, Booker-Prize shortlisted or not. Get it for $10.00 from Amazon.com, £5.52 from Amazon.co.uk or £6.57 from Wordery.com (UK)

Exposure Helen Dunmore

  • Exposure – Helen Dunmore. This is a slow-build, tense, not-quite-thriller novel about someone falsely accused of spying in the Cold War in 1950s Britain. What was particularly outstanding about this book was the characterisation – the narrative followed three voices in the conflict, and it was utterly compelling. I hadn’t read anything by her before but now I want to read her other books. It’s a relatively slow start, but the interesting characters are utterly captivating. Like Ian McEwan’s Saturday the menace builds slowly, and is a tense page-turner by the end – I heartily recommend it. Get it for $13.75 from Amazon.com, £11.89 from Amazon.co.uk or £11.87 from Wordery.com (UK)

The Vanishing of Dr Winter

  • The Vanishing of Dr Winter – (Posie Parker Mysteries #4) – L B Hathaway. I’m a huge fan of this cosy crime series, set in the 1920s. This one was a little different to the others -a missing person rather than a murder, and lots of flashbacks to the First World War. For me it was really interesting to think about how the First World War would have impacted the mood of the 1920s, and it was another great Posie Parker story, this time set in Cambridge. I love love love this series – check them all out – they’re so reasonably priced. Get it for $3.95 from Amazon.com, or £2.79 from Amazon.co.uk. See the whole series on Amazon.com or Amazon.co.uk 


March/April – Mysterious SuperVirus (plus M.E. relapse)

I had such great intentions about what I would do in March – perhaps I would edit my Advent book, write lots of blog posts, do fun things to celebrate my birthday. Congratulating myself on having escaped the ME relapse that normally comes in January or February, I was lulled into a false sense of security. But over the mild winter, all the flu’s and viruses had been sneakily brewing into a super-virus flu and – WHAM – I got hit. (I wasn’t sure what to call it – virus sounds too mild, but I don’t know if it was the flu or not. It could have been Swine Flu, for all I know. So I’m going for Mysterious SuperVirus.)

The Mysterious SuperVirus hit the boy, and then me. When the boy gets sick, he is uncharacteristically subdued and affectionate. We cuddled up together in bed with sick buckets at the ready on either side, and I read him the story of Little O getting mumps, over and over, until he knew the words better than me. He got better, then worse, then had antibiotics and – bing! – after two weeks, he was off and bouncy again.

This is the difference between a healthy child and an adult with ME: after two weeks he was bouncing again, after two weeks I could barely walk. The virus had sapped the little strength I had, and I had to move into the bedroom next to the bathroom, because I could only walk a few paces, while hanging onto the walls. Days blurred into weeks. Showering (using a shower stool) was a mountain I could climb only once every four days. I couldn’t go downstairs, sit up. Sometimes Jon had to cut my food up for me, clean my teeth.

Paleo Birthday Cake

Paleo Birthday Cake

Birthday Fun

There were some bright spots: in the middle of March, it was my birthday, and although I was home alone, ill on my birthday, my friends got me awesome presents and cards to let me know I was thinking of them. And a few weeks later, Jon made me the most amazing Paleo Chocolate Cake ever, and my friend Jasmine made me the most amazing Paleo Carrot Cake ever, so I was well-cared for in cake.

For most of March, my mind was in that infuriating place of being active, and bored – but unable to concentrate on anything more demanding than a short TV program. I spent hours in bed, listening to music, staring at the walls.

It brought home to me of the privilege of being housebound rather than completely bed-bound. There is a significant loss of independence that comes with not being able to wash or dress yourself or sit up, or walk. So many people with ME are suffering in that state, staring at the walls, tired but wired, while also battling agonising pain.

Now we’re in May, and I’ve only just moved back into my bedroom. I’m well enough to walk from the bedroom to the bathroom now, but not quite well enough to do my daily trip downstairs without a wheelchair. So – we’re getting there, but it’s slow.

Jenny Rowbory turned 30

Jenny Rowbory turned 30

Jenny Rowbory turned 30

You may not know Jenny Rowbory, but you should. She is my all-time hero. She has been bed-bound for eleven years with a combination of very severe Myaglic Encephalomyelitis (ME) and rare vascular Ehler-Danlos Syndrome. She is an amazing friend, who is significantly limited, unable to talk or tolerate touch, and is now so weak that it’s difficult for her to hold an iPhone to contact people.

She is also a published poet – with some of my favourite poems of all time. She is fiercely intelligent, funny and compassionate. To celebrate her 30th birthday, I sent her 30 of her favourite things  – as penguins. (Because – why not?) Buy her book of poetry, Rainbows in My Eyes for £8.50 from Amazon.co.uk, or from $5.00 from Amazon.com

30 of Jenny's Favourite Penguins

30 of Jenny’s Favourite Penguins


(I watched a lot of TV in March and April…don’t judge)

  • My Good Wife addiction got a little out of control in March, mainly because I had nothing else to do. Midway through Series 5, I did the “NOOOOO!” that everyone else who’s watched it will know about – but that season 5 ended up coming good again. In Season 6 I found myself praying for Cary Agos, and having to remind myself that we don’t generally pray for fictional characters. I got to the end of Netflix, and ended up paying for Season 7 episodes on iTunes till I’d caught up with it on Channel 4. BECAUSE I AM ACTUALLY ADDICTED. (But so far Season 7 is a little disappointing. I’m hoping it’s going to get better. And has anyone else noticed that McVey and Jason are basically the same character?? Bring back Polmar, I say…)
  • Friday Night Lights – sometimes you need something to make you cry cathartically. This program about a coach taking over a school American Football team is not quite Nashville, not quite One Tree Hill, but somewhere in that zone.
  • Once Upon a Time – SO good. I’m halfway through Season 1. The premise is that the wicked queen in Snow White has cursed all the fairy tale characters to live in our present world, with no memory of who they are, and destined to have no happy endings. There’s someone who’s entered into that village (like an unwilling Messiah figure), and things are starting to change. So it flashes back between the fairy tales (which are often twisted up) and the present day – and it’s brilliant. It’s much better than I imagined it to be, and I’m loving the way it plays with the original stories.
  • House of Cards – I’ve been really excited to watch this, but at the moment it all seems a bit dark and bleak. Very MacBeth in characterisation, which is a nice homage, but I’m finding I have to rewind every time Kevin Spacey makes a long speech in his (slightly dubious?) accent. I’m waiting for it to get good. Does it?
  • Garfunkel and Oates – a bit crude for my taste, but some of the episodes are really funny
  • Kimmy Schmidt – is back! Not quite as sparky as the first season
  • Jane the Virginwatched one episode of the new series but it didn’t grab me. Does the series get better?
  • Chuck season 3 – Kung Fu Chuck.
  • American Idol – the last season. I really love this program – I will miss it.
  • Sing it on – reality show, like a slightly more pathetic, real-life version of Glee.
  • Carpool karaoke – stop whatever you’re doing and watch the YouTube videos of James Corden’s Carpool Karaoke. My favourites included J. Lo, Adele, Chris Martin, and One Direction.


30 Second Bible – #30SecondsOrLess

Jim Kast Keat did an amazing project for Lent – he got a wide variety of Bible teachers to summarise each book of the Bible in 30 seconds or less, and then he put together some images to make a video out of it.

Amy Young has a link to all the different books in the Bible and a check list so you can mark when you’ve heard them. For each book of the Bible, there is a 30 second summary, and 30 seconds on the good news of that particular book. This way you can cover all the books of the Bible in a little over an hour!

You may be particularly interested in my husband’s and my offerings:

On Disability Benefit Cuts (my interviews and others):

ME articles:

“…CFS is really an umbrella term for a whole variety of underlying illnesses – some psychological or due to anxiety-related exercise intolerance, but many others down to neurological impairment, energy-production impairment or even autoimmune dysfunction. “We’ve been taking diseases that aren’t even related to each other, but because fatigue is the unifying symptom, we’ve thrown them in the same bucket and treated them the same,” Dimmock says. “If you prescribe a graded exercise regime to a CFS patient with an energy-production impairment, you can do a lot of harm. It’s like taking patients who all suffer from shortness of breath, but the root causes range from asthma to angina. You would never treat them as the same group of patients.” – Great Guardian article on ME – Is Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Finally Being Taken Seriously? 


Photo copyright Alice Broadway

Photo © Alice Broadway

My amazing friend Alice Broadway got signed to Scholastic for a three-book deal. Ink is a story about “love, loyalty and the longing to live for ever” set in a world where “your every achievement, your every failing, your every significant moment, is tattooed onto your skin. When you die your skin is made into a book, so that your children and grandchildren can ‘read’ your life: a world where you will never be forgotten.” For those who like Young Adult Fiction, I think this could be the Next Big Thing. You saw it here first.



And finally…I started a trend!!




On a sunny day, I managed to get down to the front door via my stairlift, and because I was desperate to enjoy the sun, I lay down, halfway hanging out of my porch in a decidedly un-British way. It may not have been dignified, but it was delicious to experience the sunshine for that blissful half hour.

Then – because of the delights of Facebook – some friends also threw caution to the wind and sunbathed on their front door out of solidarity. I was really touched by all the photos that came in – people as far as Boston and Atlanta and Cyprus had all joined in my trend, #FrontdoorSunbathing (if you add a hashtag it makes it sound like it’s a thing). This made me smile a lot. (Note the person who left it a bit too late, and the sun had gone down…)

#FrontdoorSunbathing around the world

#FrontdoorSunbathing around the world


PHEW! Well done for making it this far.

Over to you: 

  • What were you into in March/April?

I’m linking up with Leigh Kramer for her magnificent What I’m Into Linkup.

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10 Responses to What I’m Into – Mar/Apr 2016

  1. Rebecka 11th May, 2016 at 8:13 pm #

    “We don’t generally pray for fictional characters” Too funny!

    I’m sorry I missed your birthday. I spent three weeks in April away at a clinic, without Internet access, social media or TV, getting a bunch of weird alternative treatments. (I got a lot of reading and knitting done.) About one week in to my stay I got a high fever and spent a whole day more or less asleep and when I woke up the next day, the fever was gone and I felt better than I had felt in years! It was like the fever helped my body get rid of something nasty. After that I’ve had more energy, slept better and I have been able to read more books, go to church and even go for long walks. (Until Saturday, now I’m kind of faint and tired again.)

    I’ll try to answer a few of your questions:
    Not sure House of card gets good, I watch it but I don’t like it all that much.
    I have enjoyed the second series of Jane the Virgin though I will agree the first one was better.
    Just a little warning, Once Upon a Time gets worse and worse with time. I quite liked the first series but the fourth and fifth bored me.

    Have you seen Crazy Ex-girlfriend? It’s silly and a little stupid but quite fun. I think you might enjoy it.

    Hope you’ll keep getting stronger and stronger!

  2. Addie Zierman 11th May, 2016 at 6:36 pm #

    Thanks so much for the shout-out, lovely friend. I’m in love with your collection of front-door sun-bathing photos! Beautiful.

  3. Jenna DeWitt 11th May, 2016 at 5:05 pm #

    Yay Ravenclaw power! Those first two books are recent favorites of mine and the third about Oxford has been on my to-read list for a while.

    Also, Friday Night Lights is basically my hometown. If you’re wondering what small town Texas is like, that’s actually really close to reality. haha


  4. Anna Wood 11th May, 2016 at 4:59 pm #

    Just read your description of the virus/relapse thingy – I’m once again struck by how different our experiences are of ME. I have only rarely had anything close to the physical weakness that you describe, and I can’t imagine what it is like, and how vulnerable you must feel. On the other hand I’m always envious of your cognitive function- if I’m lucky I read one book every other month or so. TV is often very limited especially if it has any intellectual content or background music to it. One day we’ll find out if this is our bodies reacting differently to the same thing, or completely different illnesses!

  5. christina 11th May, 2016 at 3:25 pm #

    Tanya- you are my hero!!! Going through all this hard days you write this honest post and it`s somehow so filled with gratefulness. You are amazing and I pray that my heart becomes a little more like that. God must be so totally proud of you! Thank you for the books you recommend , I always find good books by reading your posts.
    lots of love – and I will do the frontdoor sunbathing thinking of you (in germany it`s not so uncommon, I think:-)).

  6. Janice 11th May, 2016 at 3:24 pm #

    The sunbathing feet was fun. I do hope the recovery continues.

    As far as House of Cards, to me it was unrelentingly dark and bleak. We gave up on it, in the end. I need SOME character to root for in a show…

    I read Night Driving this month also, and loved it. Addie is brilliant.

    It’s lovely to hear from you!

  7. Mark Allman 11th May, 2016 at 2:26 pm #

    I liked those pictures of sunbathing feet! I hope you continue to get better. Happy Belated Birthday!!

  8. Amy Boucher Pye 11th May, 2016 at 1:47 pm #

    A lovely lunchtime read – thank you.

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